God tests his people so that they will learn to fear Him and not man or earthly consequences. He tested Isaac to see if he would obey Him without question and sacrifice his son, his only son. Isaac obeyed, was found faithful, and therefore was spared having to commit the act of sacrificing his son. God is testing me to trust Him in an otherwise unstable and trepidatious time. I have failed and I have feared and cried out against Him. Through Jesus though I am still accounted as righteous. I have learned to submit to His providence because truly there is nothing I can do about it, and He has planned all for my good. He loves me. More than I love my own children. He dotes on me, disciplines me, delights in me. Even though I leave this earth with nothing, I still have His love, and His son's blood to cover me. In heaven I will fear no more. I will lack no more. More importantly, I will doubt no more. Blessed be the name of the Lord.