I cannot even believe my appetite lately. One of the top subjects on the brain these past several weeks is food, which is a little odd considering most of it has made me nauseous to even talk about. It's a little embarrassing really. Tonight Colin had to talk me down from an Awesome Blossom from Chili's take-out. He flat out refused to even consider Quizno's, which isn't such a big deal really, but keep in mind all of this is going on while there's a party size lasagna in my oven. Oh, my. You'd think I was carrying septuplets with this attitude, but I have a new theory- it's another kid with the appetite of my #2 and #4 children and I'm just trying to keep up with it. These are the kids that are four and 18 mos, and both of them could kill me in an eating contest on any given day.
But, regardless, this whole thing reminds me of a verse we read last Sunday:
Philippians 3:19 Their destiny is destruction, their god is their stomach,
and their glory is in their shame. Their mind is on earthly things.
I have to admit, my mind is definitely on earthly things as of late. Especially with the fatigue making it extremely hard to get my work done or treat my family with love, patience, and kindness. I begin to get very focused on these things and how I'm failing at them instead of remembering that I'm not yet supposed to get it right yet - at least not completely anyway. Whether I like it or not, I'm going to fail, and fail often. Physical weaknesses, hormonal fluctuations, and what not only make sure that this will happen much more often. I must change my focus from the things which are temporary, onto those that are permanent - Christ's sacrifice which did away with these failures once and for all, and the eternal rest we will have one day in heaven. All of these trials will be a very distant memory soon. I'll try to remember the beginning part of that scripture as well, the part that gives me hope and not just the part that condemns:
Philippians 3:12-14 12 Not that I have already attained, or am already
perfected; but I press on, that I may lay hold of that for which Christ Jesus
has also laid hold of me. 13 Brethren, I do not count myself to have
apprehended; but one thing I do, forgetting those things which are behind and
reaching forward to those things which are ahead, 14 I press toward the goal for
the prize of the upward call of God in Christ Jesus.